Had to take another day off just to lay in my bed. I really feel so sick. I can’t eat, and I just keep worrying. I just want this to be over. I’m so ready to take this last day like this and just go on with everything tomorrow.
My boss sent me home early today because she thinks I really need the day off to rest. I really appreciate it, I didn’t even ask to be sent home but she took one look at me and knew.
I can’t even begin to say how thankful I am to have so many people who are here for me. It means everything to me. I really try to reassure myself that I’m so loved by so many friends and it really does help. I’m sad, and sick to my stomach, but it’s nice to know I don’t have to do this completely alone.
I miss him, very much. And I know it’s going to take a while to get back to myself but just because today is cloudy, doesn’t mean the sun won’t ever come out. I finally was getting back to being happy and I’m not going to let this bring me down. I’m letting myself be sad, but I’m not going to allow it to drag me down like I have in the past. I’m trying very hard to be strong and hoping that this all will make sense.